Sunday, May 27, 2012

The Social Network - being smart again

Finally watching the Social Network for the very first time (yeah yeah I know about time). But man does the first 38mins make you realize how incredibly smart Mark is. I would kill to be that smart!

It's not even about how brilliant his mind is, it's about his devotion to coding. I never did like coding much in High School. It was okay when we used pascal, but once it got advanced..I lost interest. Hence sticking to the Sciences. But over the last four years I have lost my motivation to study..not motivation, devotion. I've lost that drive that made me want to study. I don't know why, it's not like I got passionate about something else because I'm literally not doing anything.

So maybe I will use the next three months to get that devotion back. But for now, I shall continue watching The Social network.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Weight Loss, let's make it official

So, I've pretty much struggled my whole life trying to lose weight, trying to be thin, trying to be fit. I've literally been obsessed with this idea since the age of 10 (sad right?). Over the years I have lost weight, gained it back over and over again. There were some futile methods and some that were really beneficial (more on those later).

I have come to realize that you can't just expect to lose weight and keep it off. You can't do that, not unless you make life-style change. So I'm going to keep track of what I do, and how I do it here, on my blog, regardless of whether even another soul reads it or not.

So, my first attempt at making a life-style change is going to begin with a simple "Cleanse Phase". It's going to require that we literally clean out our bodies of all the junk we've stored in there. This means no more sugary pop, no cookies, no chips, no deep-fried food. I can't diet, because I love food too much. I give in too quickly and go crashing down. So there's the plan for this week:

1. Exercise (You have to move, if you want the fat to move!)
2. WATER (no juices, pop or anything, just drink water with the exception of milk)
3. Healthy Foods and PORTION CONTROL

That's it, three things, be active, drink lots of water and eat healthy foods. This last bit is a bit challenging for me because coming from a brown family our every meal is drowned in tubs on oil. But I will try my best to avoid eating too much of what-ever food there is. It's also very important to control the portions you eat in. Take a small handful and take more ONLY if you're REALLY hungry. If not, have a glass of water and be done with it. Seriously, we don't need that much food in our bodies, we just love the taste so that tricks us to eating more.

Anyway that's my two cents on my weightloss journey---er correction--lifestyle change journey.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

The Alphabet Story

So my nine year old sister is home with me and her annoying habit is to bug me while I try to work. She makes me play silly games. So tonight she introduced me to a game where basically we make a story super fast using the alphabet. This was the result:

Going into
House number four
It was very scary
Jergens cream was every where
Kicking was being heard
My goodnes did it go up my
Ooops i didnt mean nose, i meant
Poop, what? yeah it made me poop
Queens and kings saw it too
Randy jackson was there
Selena Gomez followed him
To the
Umbrella show
Vegetarian food
Was served and there were people taking
Xrays of

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Formspring and the like

So being off from facebook for about 5 months made me realize that Facebook has exceeded even its own level of stalkerishness.

Those of you who are not familiar with the site formspring, it is a site branching off from facebook. It allows users to ask questions or say things to people (publicly) with either an identity or as anonymous.

Sounds decent enough, right? WRONG. Imagine the amount of rubbish people can type up for you. And do you seriously want people to ask you all sorts of personal questions? HELLO, Stalker alert! I thankfully am not part of this crazy fad, but seriously, are people that desperate to vent about their lives, or question about such deep things? Some aren’t even interested, they’re asking you nonsense just to make fun of YOU. Trust me.

What happened to one’s own privacy?

It seems as the world of technology grows, the more public our lives become. And sadly, upon our own free will. Sure facebook is great to keep in touch, I’m all for that. But there should be a limit to what people post about themselves on the net, no? Sure it’s great to hear that you get accepted into such and such university, or got a really cool present you wanted, but does everyone really need to know about every bug bite you get, or that you had a fight with your friend?

Okay I admit, sometimes it is just fun to update your status about something random like.. I don’t know, “my carpet smells funny”.. or something. It’s all about seeking-attention. You think people who put 100 pictures of themselves are seeking attention? News flash for you, once you’ve made a facebook account, you’ve entered the world of attention seeking.

Well, that’s Facebook for you. Formspring on the other hand, seriously people. Is it not enough that you have your entire community added as your friends, that now you need random people to say things about you? Get a life, please. Don’t waste your time on what “anonymous” said about you.

All those who wish to save their sanity, please, get out with your own real live friends. Enjoy REAL time!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

The Fascination of Web Browsing Programs

So basically, I downloaded the latest version of Mozilla Firebox and later installed Google Chrome too.

Both web browsers are quite fast and efficient, but there is one thing that made me adore these two: THEMES.

So, you can now personalize your web-browsers with themes (chrome)/personas (firefox)!

Anyway, I was just mesmerized by those, and thought I’d let ya’ll know :)

It’s really cool. *nerdy grin*

(And yes, I know I have not blogged in a while.. got tooo busy with school, still am, but oh well!)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010



There comes a time or day which just shows you the reality of things, a new realization if you will.

The moment I walked out my door this morning, I had a strange feeling = there was fog everything. It made me think, "something bad is going to happen"

Instead, I thought of a lot of things.
I want to be closer to Allah, to this religion and be a good person.

Life is God's Gift and sometimes we need a reminder to re think what we want with our lives and how we're going to live it.

I think I got that reminder thanks to Allah.

Who ever reads this, please remember me in your prayers.

And All the best with everything.

Friday, January 15, 2010

Reality Check

So here I was thinking I had my life completely set and in order. Knowing exactly where I want to go and what I want to do with my life.

Until today.

I have family friend, 'Aunty' we call her, known her for about ten years. You know the usual, Salam, Duaa, how are you's and meeting up at family friend davwats/get-togethers. Totally normal. Until cancer struck her.

It's been a year now, year and a half, I really don't know. It's been on and off, she's been gone to pakistan a few times for some herbal remedy and I hear from my parents she's doing well. Had a function of our own on Dec.24th - she was there. Yes, she was weak and slightly pale, but other than that you couldn't tell she had this devastating disease.

The next week things got worse. She was taken to the hospital and after fifteen days she returned home a few days back. Mum said she was still ill, but was doing better.

Next thing you know, the day later, she's rushed back to the hospital - serious condition.

I prayed full hearted-ly and I believe she will be cured. InshaAllah

Today, being Friday, mum and dad planned to go to the hospital again. The aunty's kids and my sisters are very good friends (the kids are aged about 11(girl), 9 (boy) and 7 (girl)). They were over at our place so after Isha Namaz (around 8:30pm) we all headed to East York Hospital.

I hadn't seen Aunty in ages, so I was quite eagar to visit her. Mum told me she was asking about me and my sisters when she had been home, so it was a nice feeling.

We (mum, me, sisters, and aunty's kids - dad had went to go park the car and would be coming up later) made our way up the elevator, the halls were quite deserted as most visitors had left. We walked past the waiting area where Uncle (aunty's husband) and some of his friends were sitting.

We turned and then entered the room of where Aunty was laying. There were a few other ladies there by her bed.

I was petrified.

She was always a thin woman, but laying on that bed, her lips trembling, her eyes barely opened - was unbareable to see.
And to add to that, when her daughters went up to her bedside, "Assalamoalaikum Mama", she tired to open her eyes and tired to reply to the salam. And that shattered me.

I ran out of the room, and stood outside it. My tears were uncontrollable and I couldn't get Aunty's face out of head. It was a clear, vivid image.

Rafu came out to comfort me, I sent her back in; Mum came out, told me that aunty was acutally a lot better than yesterday, handed me a tissue and asked me to come back in after telling me that I shouldn't cry because then aunty's kids will get worried. I wiped my tears and went back in.. though I stood near the door, my mum and sisters around me.

I continued to watch as Shanin and Ayesha (Aunty's two daughers) spoke to their mum. It was quite the emotional moment, but I kept the water works closed .. until mum says to me, "aisay raho gi to doctor kaisay bano gi?" (how are you going to become a doctor like this?) ..And I welled up again - because I was thinking of the same thing.

I rushed to the other side of the hall.. started pacing, because I just couldn't help but cry. Then one of the ladies (also a family friend) came up to, held me and said, "you have to be strong, shanin and aaysha look up to you, if you cry, so will they". I nodded, and then ran to the other corridor.. where thank GOD I found daddy sitting there talking to another uncle.

I ran to him and put my head on his arm. He consoled me, telling me that it's good that I'm crying and it's good that I came here to see her because it just gives you a new appreciation of life. He told me how once when he was in University he say saw a small girl getting stitches and he couldn't bare it(thus he didn't pursue a career as a doctor). After sitting with him for a while, I went to take a walk.

I walked the halls of those patient rooms - peeking into the rooms of the patients. I thought to myself, "do I really want to be in this sort of my enviroment for the rest of my life?" I thought to myself, if I really wanted to become a doctor and deal with people this way. I thought, yes. As long as it was someone who didn't have sentimental values for me. I continued to pace the halls, and basically evalulated my life. Part of wanted to pursue medicine, to find cures and treatments. Part of me wanted to become a doctor so I could make treatments myself. Because at that moment, I felt so sad and so helpless. All I could do was pray.

I went to go back and sit in the waiting area. Daddy came and sat next to me. He told me not to worry and that everything will be okay. He told me that aunty was doing a lot better than before. He said, "the doctor had said she may not even survive the night, that's why they brought her to the closest hospital, but look, she's better today than yesterday". This again got to me, and thus began the infamous water works.. and then I heard aaysha coming with one of my sisters so I told daddy not to let them follow me and I made my way to the hallways I'd paced for about 20 times now.

After a while I just stood there, alone, thinking about everyone in my life and how'd they react if I were on a hospital bed (God forbid). Then I heard someone crying, I turned to my right and say Uncle bringing his daughter to the washroom. Then it hit me.

My tears, my saddness was nothing. Nothing at all.
Here was this woman's husband and child. I couldn't even begin to imagine what they were going through. Yeah I know aunty, but she's their wife and mother. I stopped crying then. Because it hit me, that there was uncle, who had to be strong for not only kids, but also his wife.

After a while I went back to the waiting room. The older daughter came there a while later and said to me, "you're eyes are not as red's so funny you cried because you saw my mom".
I didn't know what to say, "I have allergies," I lied lamely and changed the topic.

After a while, we were all getting ready to leave, I wanted to go see aunty again, but I knew I wouldn't be able to. Shanin, the older daugher says later, "haha see you didn't see my mom, 'cause you'd start crying".. I really don't know how to interpret that remark, I really don't.

We got home about an hour ago. Daddy also made a similar remark as mum about how in world I would be able to become a doctor. His exacts were something like, "ghalti se hufsa doctor banbhi gai, to kya hoga" (if by mistake hufsa becomes a doctor, what'll happen?). It was light humor, I laughed.

I'm glad I went to the hospital. I had a lot of time on my own to think things through. Evalute myself and where I am at this point in my life (Dear God, I sound like I'm 30 or 40!).

Life really is so precious. And I can't stress enough, how important it is to enjoy it and be greatful for what you have, and most importantly, who you have. Live, Laugh, Love.. is a slogan of something I don't know what - but it's true.

All I can say now, if you're reading this, please pray for aunty.